listen, i’m not sure what i mean so i’m not certain what i want. it’s all up in the air now. it hovers, watching over me like a bird. a big bird. a bird of prey. i am its prey. talons reach for me and i am alone. the talons are the night. in the […]
seasick and blissed out
from winter 2025 a person gets hit by a bus on the corner of my street. it’s 830p. i didn’t see it happen but stood out on my deck and watched them get into an ambulance with a big, white bandage wrapped around their head. watched them sit themselves on the stretcher. a wheelbarrow is […]
drink my thirst
my marfa crush takes a nap and texts me after. something about imagining i’m there with him, on the couch, in the crook of his arm. something about him playing with my hair. i follow his direction. i text back, telling him i get up from the couch to make myself a sandwich. i tell […]
beyond earth, call me your darling
the city is wet and hot all of the time now. it smells like hell. vomit and garbage and piss. i ride my bike six miles one way to the bar where i like to play pool. i do it a couple times a week. there’s a shark there named paul and we get into […]
big dipper swallow me whole
“i’m literally melting over you,” messages john from tinder. he’s a leo at six foot five inches with short but shaggy brown hair, a handsome but unremarkable face, and an athletic build. he went to penn state and works some sort of c-suite job. one of his hobbies is volleyball, which, personally, i hate, but […]
57 in paris
i love when my clothes are covered in sand the bartender the bartender at clyde feeds me one free high noon after another he looks irish or something he hits on me we talk about being young about drinking boones farm in a mine pit a small chorus on stage sings the word misery i […]
a wave, a well
summer has broken my heart again my legs a constellation of poison ivy sunburn and cigarette smoke the dog snaps his jaws at black flies on the beach i don’t know how a person survives this kind of longing
turn to honey, turn to dust
strange dreams last night, which i anticipated. always strange dreams after we break up. restless sleep. hot. the smoke rolled in. i wake up early and beau pees on the carpet while i’m brushing my teeth. i get stung by one of the wasps living on my deck. i’ll kill them all later. i drive […]
kicking and screaming quietly to myself
i’ve become one of those people who’s moved all over the place in their adult life. midwest, west coast, east coast, back to the west coast, the southwest, back east, return to the midwest and, now, east again. i’m good at getting a vision in my head and going forward with a plan. i’m good […]
turn my water to wine
make me clean again.
