“i’m literally melting over you,” messages john from tinder. he’s a leo at six foot five inches with short but shaggy brown hair, a handsome but unremarkable face, and an athletic build. he went to penn state and works some sort of c-suite job. one of his hobbies is volleyball, which, personally, i hate, but […]
57 in paris
i love when my clothes are covered in sand the bartender the bartender at clyde feeds me one free high noon after another he looks irish or something he hits on me we talk about being young about drinking boones farm in a mine pit a small chorus on stage sings the word misery i […]
a wave, a well
summer has broken my heart again my legs a constellation of poison ivy sunburn and cigarette smoke the dog snaps his jaws at black flies on the beach i don’t know how a person survives this kind of longing
turn to honey, turn to dust
strange dreams last night, which i anticipated. always strange dreams after we break up. restless sleep. hot. the smoke rolled in. i wake up early and beau pees on the carpet while i’m brushing my teeth. i get stung by one of the wasps living on my deck. i’ll kill them all later. i drive […]
kicking and screaming quietly to myself
i’ve become one of those people who’s moved all over the place in their adult life. midwest, west coast, east coast, back to the west coast, the southwest, back east, return to the midwest and, now, east again. i’m good at getting a vision in my head and going forward with a plan. i’m good […]
turn my water to wine
make me clean again.
naked i stand, tender and beloved
beau eats the rice i put on a log next to the mating lady bugs. spring! sprung! the waves roll in no particular hurry. the sun beats down on my back. “in my thoughts i have bled,” sings beth gibbons. “white horses will take me away.” seven years today since my mom died just a […]
all the horses in me are wild
beach, north dakota, is by far the windiest place i’ve ever been. it’s one of many things that makes being on the plains so humbling. walking in a straight line is impossible. driving through it is exhausting. having a coherent thought, standing out there in those punishing gusts, is out of the question. i’ve been […]
be my emily
i wondered if you’d be at the cathedral this morning, thought you might be. i’ve wondered so many things about you lately. sitting next to each other there, st. mary star of the sea, saying our easter prayers – it’s the most amicable thing we’ve done together in months aside from fuck. i prayed to […]
let me be your man
back to this. we separate and, for a moment, it’s like drowning. punishing and wet. soaking, ugly, desperate. my neighbor’s basement floods and the pipe gushes water all day long. remember when mine did that? remember the hole you dug down there for the sump? i do. i loved looking at you squatting in the […]
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